everything is resolved finally. and yup everything is back to like always.

its 4.48am now, dunno y but i jus woke up suddenly aft a weird dream. and becus of this dream i tht alot about the past, my past relationships. no doubt there r happy memories tt i will always rmb but there r also scars tt will live wif me for the rest of my life.

a blog is a diary aftall so im not scared of posting everything here, as long as u readers dun judge me.

my first relationship, people say it will always be ur best memories, i say its fucking bullshit. we got together on christmas on 2005. yeah its jus a pure attraction for each other. all our first time were given to each other and we really cherish each other. all is gd and happy till the day she and my best fren betrayed me. its like stabbing u wif a knife when u least expected it. i lost a fren, i lost a girl. tts life bah i guess. the scar tt caused me to nvr trust anyone entirely again. ty P for the 6mths of happiness and the lifetime of pain.

my 2nd relationship. S really is cute girl, although a blur queen. she was older den me by a yr. (actually its jus 4mths.) it was not long ago tt i found out im her first serious bf. but i hurt her den. i left her without telling her the reason, she haf the rights to know but i din tell her. aft the thing is resolved, i tried to woo her back. but maybe things wun be the same again bah. we r together for like 1mth or so. but its really comfortable being wif her. cus shes jus so blur but tts wat makes her so cute. =) if u let me choose, i will really wanna woo her back.

HM is my third gf. i noe her in tuition. actually it all started wif a gamble. me n my other guy frens in tuition make a gamble, as in who can win the heart of either of the 2 pretty girls in class, she being one of them. so when class end i asked for her number, on the way home i msged her. i tht i was jus a gamble so i jus go for it. i was shocked she agreed right away. i asked her y, she gaf me the ans, "your eyes r soulful." do i? so we tried it out but apparently it din work out so we broke up. we both noe tt both of us jus wan to try being in a relationship, for her its the first, for me... a way to move on.

LW is my most current gf. ok current but its 3yrs ago. i first knew her when she joined my cca. so maybe becus of working together n stuff. we got together somehow. but it lasted only for a mth. den i found out my senior, who is also a gd fren of mine, like her too. being the character i am. i made the decision of breaking up wif her and helpin my fren woo her. some people say im a bastard, some say im stupid... i dun care, at least i noe i wun regret doing this. she dunno the real reason we broke up, i din tell her, i jus told her lets break. i think its better she dunno this. till noe, 3yrs, almost 4, shes still wif my fren. i felt happy and i noe she will be happy too.

i said it again, dun judge me, or u will regret it. i post it cus i really treat this blog as my dairy. maybe for ppl to know me more. everything is in the past, happy or sad, its the past. tt weird dream remind me of all of these, but it also show me tt its time i shld move on. this dream will change me forever, a new beginning, a new sho... i really hope the nxt one will be my fifth and my last.