Sunday, April 19, 2009

its a few hours before a new sh yr starts. first day of 2nd yr. first day as a junior. n i cnt get to slp. wtf sia. been doin some reflection. most of u dunno my past so u all dunno wat a jerk i am in the past. i rmb it all start when i was in sec3... the details shall not be told. i haf been a hiongster. wanting a gf is one thing. but thinking of other girls aft u haf one is another. wat a bastard. i shld haf killed myself in the past. i shldnt haf bee borned. i brought too much sorrow n hate to this world. but most girls r jus infactuation. but a few i truely like them for wat they r. their characters, their looks, their everything. but only haf been together wif one of them. n seriously i owe her too much. in our 6mths of relation, i din gif her much, n still thinking of other girls, make her sad. i seriously dun think i ever make her happy at all. n when one day i finally left her for another. but tt was when i finally knew my feelings, but at the cost of the happiness of 2 girls. in the end she also found a new him n it all ended i think. but she broke up wif him to come back to me but i told her it had ended. seriously i regretted everything. im such a jerk. scold me or beat me. i haf nothin to say. all i can say to u is sorry. now im nothin but a carefree guy. jus living a normal life. i jus hope u will live happily n hope u will find a new him.

ps: if u ever read this, u shld noe im talking bout u. morphine... i cnt gif u happiness so i hope u will find a better guy who will.

-Lonely Person-
12:30 PM